Here is what I learned:
- I was going about it totally backwards
The whole purpose of this was to push through a hundred paintings, move quick and not let perfection get in the way of progress. Honestly, the first 20 should have been train wrecks and I should have blown through them in a few weeks. Instead, almost from day one, I locked down and tired to make these "good" and worth selling.
- I forgot I did not know how to paint
That may sound crazy but it is the truth. I assumed I could decide to do this, pick up a brush, and they would just appear. I do not know how to paint. That is why I am doing this. It's OK if they suck. I am learning. And apparently I am starting to sound like Stuart Smalley here. Moving on.
- I was afraid of what people were going to think
I generally have an approval problem and thought if I started posting junk paintings people would think that I (rightly so, McFly) did not know how to paint. So I would torture myself and beat them into submission. The problem is, this is supposed to be fun and a learning experience. You may like them, you may hate them. I do need to not worry about that and focus on getting better.
Title is lifted from the wonderful 30 Rock episode.